We ran a short one in the driveway after ages. It’s freezing, he said when we stepped out. The weather has changed quickly this week.
Perhaps because we ran the driveway together after a long while, he suddenly remembered that when he was about five – during the Covid time – I yelled at him for running on the “crack” in the centre of the driveway. I did. I was afraid he would twist his ankles and he did fall several times. But looking back, yelling and getting impatient with a five year old? What mistakes I have made through the years.
I apologised to him. He in turn apologised to me for fussing all the time. Not true at all, I said and meant it. Of course he fussed once a while, warming up. Warming up can be a pain in the ass and don’t we all know it. Getting in the groove many days can be a challenge.
We adults would, if we could openly fuss about things like that. I am sure, regardless of age, we continue to fuss about nonsense. I know I do. Case in point right here. Yelling at a kid is terrible.
Then we spoke about the many, many good runs we have had. He spoke about the six kilometre run he did on his sixth birthday. He said that at the last hundred metres, he kicked off and ran way ahead of me and I stopped. That I was just admiring the way he had the ability to run in such beautiful form and rhythm, kicking up his legs, striding effortlessly. That I told Parul waiting to celebrate his birthday, with a Belgian waffle breakfast morning, how amazingly he could run and that I repeated it several times.
I have done that so many times over the years. Admired his form and his ability to run with such grace. It doesn’t right the wrong of yelling, but hopefully there is more on this side of the balance sheet. Of course, I know there is, but it’s important to remember to be mindful. For me. As much as I can.